God is Healer

God is Healer.

It’s not a matter of if He can or whether or not He’ll do it. He is Healer. That’s His character. God heals.

I’ll be honest, I’ve wrestled with that thought a lot in this season. I’ve read scripture about Jesus healing and working miracles. I haven’t found any accounts of someone Jesus didn’t heal that had asked in faith. There are verses about requests and petitions and asking in Jesus name. At times, I’ve wrestled with the fact that I’ve read these things, but it seems like I’ve experienced something different.

When I was pregnant, we prayed so fervently for Cove and her healing, for God to be undeniably known through it. We prayed that God would deliver her from this disease. We didn’t pray for these things just because. We felt like God was telling us to ask Him for a miracle. We prayed expectantly, so much so that we only packed for a two-night stay in the hospital.

When Cove was born, a miracle she was indeed…a beautiful baby girl ready to impact the world around her! She avoided one surgery right off the bat. The doctor said, “that stomach is nothing short of a miracle.” We knew this was only the beginning of God working.

But then, they found her heart to be in the same condition as before…exactly as they had thought.

A heart surgery came and went.

An abdominal surgery came and went.

She had faced more than most people do in a lifetime before she was even two months old.

It wasn’t so hard for me to accept what had happened. It was harder for me to reconcile why God would lead us to pray for a miracle if that wasn’t His will. Did we pray the wrong way? Did we do something we weren’t supposed to? Did we ask for too much? Did we make all of this up in our heads?

Before Cove had her first surgery, someone had told me that in the Bible, God worked through signs and miracles, but now, God works through the minds and hands of doctors and modern medicine. I’m not discrediting those things at all…in fact, my baby’s life has been preserved through those very tools. But something about that statement just didn’t sit well in my spirit. I really didn’t want to believe that, but what else was I supposed to believe? I mean, it seemed very true in my circumstances. Maybe God doesn’t work like that now. I honestly felt ashamed for asking for something so big.

For those first couple of months, it was hard to pray. I was scared to be completely honest with God, but I was also scared to ask for anything at all. Why even pray then? Does it affect anything really?

Eventually, I finally just broke, and I cried out to God. And God answered me with truth coming to my mind just as clearly as the questions that were circling through my mind. Then, He pursued me…patiently, lovingly, until I trusted Him again.

I felt so refreshed in my spirit, and God was opening my eyes to things that He had been doing around us all along. I could see so much purpose in our situation, and I was content with that. But I still couldn’t understand why God didn’t heal her. Why God?

A few weeks ago, God was putting it on my heart to pray again for Cove’s healing. I was very hesitant. Like, God, we’ve been through this already. I’ve accepted that it must not be Your will. Please don’t lead me on again.

But God showed me something about Him that I had never really pieced together. It’s like He gave me the missing puzzle piece. He reconciled my situation to the truth about Him. He gave me understanding for what I had been wrestling with.

God is Healer. So, I can pray for healing, and my prayer will be answered.

This is not some prosperity gospel trick. This is the power of the one true gospel that God has been writing since the beginning. This is not just about the here and now. This is about an eternal God who is outside of my limits of time.

My God today is the same God who worked miracles in the Bible. Please don’t tell me that God doesn’t heal anymore.

God is going to heal Cove. Whether He completely heals her physical body and brings her home to live a normal life, or whether He takes her from this life out of a broken flesh and perfects her body to live for eternity—both are miracles just the same. And in either case, God heals her.

That has given me so much confidence in praying for her healing because I know that I am praying for God’s will. It is never God’s will that we remain broken. That’s why Jesus came…to save us from all of this brokenness. Not just in this short life, but for a life that never ends. His heart is to save us for an eternity.

When I became a Christian, I started living out eternity at that moment. The end of this life is just a transition into an eternal one where there is no more hurt, sorrow, or pain. Where heart defects will cease and families will be restored.

So yes, I am confident that God will heal Cove. He will deliver her from this awful thing. He will bring her home one way or another. And it will be nothing short of a miracle!

Of course, my petition is that God would work a miracle in her body and allow her to live out an abundantly long and beautiful life here on earth. But even if her story looks different, I know that God is still Healer, and His heart for us is eternal.

“Then Darius the king wrote to all the peoples, nations and men of every language who were living in all the land:

‘May your peace abound! I make a decree that in all the dominion of my kingdom men are to fear and tremble before the God of Daniel;

For He is the living God and enduring forever,

And His kingdom is one which will not be destroyed,

And His dominion will be forever.

He delivers and rescues and performs signs and wonders

In heaven and on earth,

Who has also delivered Daniel from the power of the lions.’”

‭‭Daniel‬ ‭6‬:‭25‬-‭27‬ ‭